So, I guess I have a blog now. I never thought this would happen. I was inspired while late-night surfing the web last night, and coming across a couple websites that particularly re-inspired me to get back on my feet and be kind to myself. I need to just be healthy. That's what it's all about.
I have been struggling with body and food issues for so long. And I feel so conflicted. I know I can eat healthy if I set my mind to it, but then again, I love food so much. There's so many things I want to try and make. Like I want to make my own raviolis, for one. I guess that's not terribly unhealthy, but with my condition (polycystic ovarian syndrome), and if I want to lose weight, it's best to stay away from carbs.
I'm also really confused about this whole exercising thing. A Time article came out a few weeks ago, saying that exercise is not necessary to lose weight. Others say it is. I suppose it doesn't really matter: exercise is necessary to be healthy. I realized that I need to stop battling my body, and I need to accept it and work with it. My body is all I am, and now it just seems wrong to chastise it for the way my mind is treating it. I need to become new and whole again, mind and body. I am going to redesign myself and be reborn, into a healthy person that can eventually learn to love herself.
I don't think it's going to be easy, especially the whole loving myself bit, but I need to just believe I can do it, and I will.
Maria Robinson once said, "Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make an new ending." Well, that's what I'm doing with my life now. I'm not going down the path of diabetes, heart disease, or obesity. I'm going to be fit as a fiddle, and stay that way. And Mae West once said, "You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough." Words to live by.
So I'm not going to turn food into a big deal, and I'm going to find little times to exercise. I'm doing away with all processed foods, and I must get over this sugar thing.
Today for breakfast I had TJ's apricot mango greek yogurt with TJ's high fiber cereal, chopped walnuts, and raspberries. I also did a half hour of a yoga workout.
So far, going pretty good.
